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I made a cardboard sign and held it up on the freeway saying Veteran dying of A chronic illness. made 60 bucks

It is sad to see some people come here and expect a miricle or a check in the mail. The reality is there are no checks in the mail or wealthy people who are at disposal to help people, this is just a fact of life. I also see alot about religion and the problem with this is praying will not necesarilly pay the bills. Prayer groups love people who are in need to further their prechings but if you dont truly belief it is pointless. Ive been there done that, Ive been homeless, broke and destitute to the point of staring at mthe ground looking for cigarettes. Ive also gone from that to earnign a degree in electrical, buying a house and a nice truck and a stedy income, Ive gone from that to catching menengitis and almost dying and losing everything and finally realizing I dont really need all that stuff, its pointless, its not who I am and its not who you are. When you find something you are passionate about the money will come naturally, if your ill its a different story. I no longer work due to my illness but have worked a total of 28 years out of my 48 and realize thats enough. I paint, I draw and find things that are fun to do and dont think about money....its what drives everyone but its also the downfall of many. Coming here for a quick fix is not going to happen, coming here for advice and suggestions will....what you do with that is your choice. I wish everyone well regardless.

Just a heads up to those loe been here since 07 when i was hospitalih menegitis and almost died, I requested help but never recieved any, zip, zerotl nada, if your looking for help I would suggest going to a food pantry or salvation army or anywhere in the community, there is little if no help via internet, sorry Im just trying to save u the aggravation, times are hard and nobody gives money for free....good luck though

In praying 4 u

 in response to dissability...   Have u filed for ssi or ssdi? I dont think anys one is expecting u to die, although the thought we have due to the experiences we go through may very well feel like everyone else is causing or the reason for our situations. I know I have HIV and almost died lost almost everything career house rep health so its easy to look outside oursel ves and blame society or people or whatever...I would def file for social security especially if you have past work experience....

phil...how ru? Dave

 in response to Bee's Knees...   Thanx id rahter have a wavepool instead of a swimmng pool. of u dont mind of course....and the car well////Id like a Hummer too...oh and some gas in it would be nice I appreciate you helping me...Dave

Hi Bees Knees can you build me a new house pleaseIt doesne to be that bid maybe 4000 sw ft/ Id like a fountain inside because they are so beautiful. Also could you help me get a new car...It doesnt have to be new maybe 2 years old....Thank you...

someone fix my brain

 in response to The "Raker in Raker City"...   im trying it thanx raker

 in response to Justicar333...   I am in the same situation but I have HIV and salivary gland disease so my teeth have already been pulled for the most part...my face feels like mush...I was hospitalized in 05 and have never recovered from the ilness..I am on ssdi and survive on 1000 a month . I used to be a US Marine and then an electrician...I am in an ubelievably difficicult situation..I do not know how people survive on disability...it ruins your life and makes it unbearable....people do not care about problems u have and the bills keep coming Ive lost my house,career and healtkh and Im 48. I worked nonstop for 28 years have had a nice home and truck and tools and a career as an electrician...now Im living in a place that miracles come in the form of a cigarette or a dollar or two...this is not right and I ca believe this country allow people to live in this condition...I wish someone would just pull the trigger at night while I sleep...I dream and I dream everything is normal and only wake up to realize I have aids and am suffering with nowhere to go and nothing to look forward to but someone asking me for a cigarette or a dollar....why is there so much suffering in this world

 in response to Bee's Knees...   me too

Social security is definitly going though changes as alot of baby boomers knew it would. The amount of new filings for ssdi increased dramatically in 2010 due to economic issues and an aging baby boom generation. I worked 28 yrs and finally became disabled due to aids and crytococcal menegitis. The aids was my fault due to risky behavior in the 80s but I did work hard even after my diagnosis until the menegitis effects messed up my cognitive skills. Ive met people who are on ssi or ssdi most on ssi seem to be illegal women around of hispanic descent, for some reason one always seems to be looking around corners of buildings here and acts like she lives here, not sure maybe she does, everyonce in a while cops roll through, if she is outside she will hightail into the breezeway....Its not an old issue even in the early 90s I would see illegals in the barrion where I lived who lived 5 deep in cochroach infested rooms in houses. The kids would go to local schools and were on some type of public assistance. I worked hard got myself out of that scene became an electrician bought a house truck tools only to see it go away when I got sick so now I am back in the poor side of life on ssdi. If anyone says ssdi or ssi is a godsend they are in denial...it is geared towards those who are truly disabled not the person with a limp or too damn fat to carry themselves driving a cadailac around with a handicap placard. Those are the ones who make me sick.

Just read only 1 percent of people who recieve ssdi ever go back to work.....guess its do or die at that point...

 in response to HelpMyHusband...   Theres a saying "There is good and bad in everything" You may lose something but gain something else whether it be insight hindsight Im not sure...I know when I was working non stop I worked like I had to get somewhere...like nowhere was good enough so I worked and worked came home drank and then back to work over and over for years...when i got sick it all changed and I realized none of it matters and what is meant to be is meant to be...I bought a 3 acre property with a big house only to find that rednecks lived on that street and had been for 100 years...I was out of my element so 5 years later the house was trashed my mower stolen weedwacker stolen and I realized that these people were just bums grabbin stuff to pawn.....In the old day I would of probably figured out a way to kill em because I was pretty tough I guess...I worked hard and figured what was mine was mine so hands off...it all changed 5 years ago and now I just want to chill...I do get ssdi but its not much and my son gets some too but its a far cry from when I was making good money as an electrician..I dont have all the answers but know that praying about certain things helps pray for you sanity and strength...it has nothing to do with money....Peter Poppoff types are scammers and use religion as a tool to get...money....so money doesnt always solve all problems...your situation like others is unique but not uncommon....I hope things will work out,..Dave

 in response to The "Raker in Raker City"...   U understand what u r saying, I see people on the freeway looking for money...signs the whole nine and I still give them money even though Im broke.....It never seems to come back but at least I helped however noone really knowss what others are going through...Its just one of those things...I dont look like Im sick and still get people asking me whats up and all that...Its one cat that cant come out of the bag.....I do feel run down alot mostly from the meds....I asked the doc if I could go off em he said..."yea but u will probly last a year and be done so.....Thats not an option...The money thing has always perplexed me and how people view it, I grew up in a beach town and money was looked at a tool to buy beer, most of my friends I went to high school with r dead before 45....too much alcohol...car accidents and being at the wrong place at the right time soo...with that said I may have lost alot but at 48 Im still here its just different now...

 in response to The "Raker in Raker City"...   Thanx Raker, I find that I keep to myself pretty much now, I talk with a few people and realize thee are the people I used to say I have no time for. The ironic thing is I have given up looking for that dream...My health is relatively fine...I did lose 70 lbs anemic and had 3 transfusions not to mention crytoccocal menegitis but I feel Im here for a reason, I managed to salvage my car and pay it off and thats all I really wanted....I used to make good money like you and now realize that all that goes away in the end regardless...money is defintely what drives people but it can also be their downfall. I hear ya on Obama....middle class has gone away and the lower incomes are benefiting from so many sociual services but I dont care about all that. In my heart I know I worked hard for 30 years....been a marine , navy reservists and an electrician but now its my time to rest and let the madness go on without me. I hopeyour situatiion gets better too and Ill pray for you also. Thanx Dave

I think you need to pray about it...sometimes its all we have, I went from making 70000 a year as an electrician to contracting menegitis and almost died...I had 2 homes...nice truck good income called my own shots to living in an apartment with kids on welfare, screaming african american moms theives and hoods all because I got sick and ended up here...I also contracted aids so I figure I dont have much time left since Ive been positive since 97, however Im still here, I pray and chant and do weird stuff to get me through but Im still here and u will survive this...just pray about it with all your heart and sould...All your prayers may not be answered but u may find peace....SDave